Realizing I just justified the past hour at a social as 'for impact,' but didn't realize it because I didn't literally think about impact (I was thinking, "you can help people!") Agh. But now I'm aware, next time I'll give greater weight to following what seems exciting and frivolous.

Starting to think the way through imposter syndrome blocking further thought/writing is, "just do it anyway."

Three updates on my burnout

On treating oneself with curiosity and compassion

My current hypothesis for an emotional processing workflow that works for me

Noticing that my incredible gratitude/surprise at people in my life helping me overcome problems might signal that, on the flip side, I'm not well-calibrated on how tractable problems are and/or am easily dissuaded by problems.

first attempt at positive focusing

My cup overfloweth: I am beyond grateful to the EA community, which has *continuously* exceeded my expectations.

AI generated art + misc. happy reflections

Feeling surprisingly energized by AI discussion, but mainly when (a) I'm successfully learning (so this is not a signal about the domain), (b) evaluating AI safety stories (maybe a sign I should trial strategy fit?), (c) talking to my friends (I am extremely suspicious of this convergence and would bet on this leading me to overestimate the impact of these discussions)

Bay Area Wishlist

Want to test your fit for AI technical safety research with me?

pivoted from testing technical research fit to reading about s-risks and I'm pleasantly surprised by the fact that, for the first time in a bit, I'm actually keen to spend my day ~ working ~ (e.g., I'm bothered by distractions and want to turn my notifications off)

Feedback update (yes, I take these seriously!)

Doing chores in the morning is one of the most relaxing experiences for me, but I'm not sure why! Some ideas...

Thoughts on 'Less often discussed EA emotional patterns'

Some people's rest day look like writing personal reflections, gaining emotional insight, and/or brainstorming world-changing ideas.Mine is looking like a lot of HSMTMTS sing-alongs and in an effort to not judge myself for it, I'm going to just be really into this!

Thought I needed to find some atelic hobbies & it turns out they were what they've been all along: card games and musicals.

processing feedback update: successfully processed some of the most detailed feedback I've gotten yet!

y'all thought you knew my ~ vibe ~ but unless you thought my vibe was maisie peters before she blew up, you absolutely Did Not

🔈open call for constructive criticism!